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The Archdiocese is set to welcome three women whose faith in Christ has transformed their lives.

Martina Purdy was a BBC TV political correspondent and Elaine Kelly was a leading Belfast barrister who both made headlines in 2014 when they gave everything up to enter a convent as Sisters of Adoration.

Joining with the Irish singer Dana, whose life has also been shaped by her Catholic faith, the three women are on a mission to light the flame of faith, hope, and love, inspired by St Patrick.

Ahead of their event at St Mary's Cathedral on Friday 17 October, Martina and Elaine tell us more about their fascinating story and Friday's concert.

 

Join Martina, Elaine, and Dana on Friday 17 October for Dana and Friends: Stories of Faith, Hope, and Love. Doors 7:00pm. Register here. This article (abridged) first appeared in Crux, the magazine of the Friends of St Mary's Cathedral.

EVENT: Stories of Faith, Love & Hope

The Archdiocese is set to welcome three women whose faith in Christ has transformed their lives.

Martina Purdy was a BBC TV political correspondent and Elaine Kelly was a leading Belfast barrister who both made headlines in 2014 when they gave everything up to enter a convent as Sisters of Adoration.

Joining with the Irish singer Dana, whose life has also been shaped by her Catholic faith, the three women are on a mission to light the flame of faith, hope, and love, inspired by St Patrick.

Ahead of their event at St Mary's Cathedral on Friday 17 October, Martina shares their remarkable story.

***

It’s been twenty years since I last visited Scotland.

I was then the political correspondent for BBC Northern Ireland, and the Prime Minister Tony Blair was camped at the Scottish seaside with our politicians trying to break the political stalemate at Stormont.

To the surprise of many, the St Andrews Agreement was forged - paving the way for an amazing conversion: power-sharing at Stormont between sworn enemies, Ian Paisley, the DUP firebrand, and Martin McGuinness, the IRA leader.

As for me, I was heading for my own transformation.

Like the Northern Ireland peace process, it is a long story. But on Friday October 10, 2014, it was reported that I had left the BBC to join a convent in Belfast.

Although I had spent 20 years building a career as a journalist in Belfast, reporting the bad news, I had fallen in love with the Lord and “the Good News!”

It was a big surprise, for me as well as everyone else! But then we have a God of surprises!

Supernatural

I had covered the multi-party talks that led to the Good Friday Agreement, published a book about the machinations at Stormont, and travelled to Downing Street and the White House to cover the peace process.

It was a privilege to have a ringside seat as history unfolded, but I had found something better than being on television talking about politics: being at the feet of Jesus in silent adoration every day.

Sr Martina & Sr Elaine outside St Peter's Cathedral in Belfast (image: Ann McManus).

And so I left everything - and became a Sister of Adoration on the Falls Road Belfast, two doors down from where I used to wait to interview Martin McGuinness and the Sinn Fein President Gerry Adams. And I was not the only newcomer in the convent.

Two other women had joined a few months ahead of me, one of them, Elaine Kelly, a barrister in Belfast.

She had just quit the courtroom for the convent, after a supernatural encounter with Christ on 9 March 2014. She had felt a strong touch on her heart, during adoration of Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament, and she heard the words: “You will be a sister of adoration.”

Power of God's call

If you had told me at St Andrews that I would one day walk away from the BBC to become a nun on the Falls Road, I would have laughed in your face.

But I have come to know the power of God’s call and the words of an angel to Mary in the darkness of impossibility: “For God, nothing is impossible.”

Convent life was very simple, a call to silent adoration of Jesus’s real presence in the Blessed Sacrament.

Our Congregation Adoration Réparatrice was founded in Paris in 1848 by Théodelindé Dubouche who is known now as Venerable Marie Thérèse. She was an accomplished portrait artist, painting the rich and famous in post-revolutionary France - until she realised their lives were vacuous and went deeper into her faith.

She painted a vision of the Holy Face of Christ in his passion - and also was given a divine mission in adoration before the Blessed Sacrament.

She saw, not a monstrance, but Jesus on his throne, with a golden stream from his heart to hers and she heard the words: “I want souls before me always to receive my life and communicate my life to others.”

Elaine and I marvelled that the Lord had called a journalist and a barrister, a writer and a woman of reason to communicate his life. Only God could call two professional talkers to a life of silence!

Our joy was palpable, as we made our first vows of poverty, chastity and obedience on September 23, 2017, the Feast of St Pio, at St Peter’s Catholic Church. There remains a wonderful picture of Elaine and I outside the Cathedral, ready for mission.

'Be amazed'

At the time, we were not aware that rules were being introduced by the Vatican, rules which would prevent us from finishing our nine-year formation to final vows.

The new rules effectively forced small congregations like ours to merge with other orders.

There was some sense in what the Vatican was doing: many congregations like ours had fewer and fewer sisters capable of governing. Our fully professed sisters, some frail and elderly, felt compelled under obedience to Rome to release us. It was the beginning of the end of the congregation.

All three of our convents, in Belfast, Wexford and Paris, are now closed.

We were given the news on the eve of Ash Wednesday 2019. Elaine and I say our lives flipped on Pancake Tuesday.

All of us were sent into the chapel to pray. I was in a state of shock, but Elaine was more open to God’s will than I was. And in the silence of her heart, she heard two words: “Be amazed!”

I thought this meant we were going to get a miracle and be allowed to stay on.

Instead we got a miracle in another form: Elaine and I were offered a house in Downpatrick, and conscious that the Lord sent them out in pairs, we decided to accept and begin again.

That was the autumn of 2019 and almost immediately a new man came into my life in a big way! St Patrick!

This great saint had begun his mission in Downpatrick in 432AD - a mission that inspired countless saints, including St Colmcille who would set up a famous monastery in Iona.

Our mission with St Patrick began like most missions - with prayer. I did not want a job - I wanted a mission so at Mass I begged St Patrick to find me one. And after Mass, a man from The Saint Patrick Centre in Downpatrick offered me a job writing press releases and promoting the centre. I was amazed.

I began to research St Patrick and read his Confessio online, his life in his own words. And he described how the Lord found him in the muck and the mire and raised him up and put him on a high wall and he adds: “So be amazed all you people great and small!”

I shouted for Elaine. “St Patrick used the words you heard in the chapel!” We saw it as a sign that we were on the right path. Elaine and I then, together with the centre, developed a new camino St Patrick’s Way, a walk to seven holy sites in Downpatrick. We have led hundreds of pilgrims along ancient pilgrim routes!

The Lord has since led us back to the parish of St Michael the Archangel where we are part of the leadership team. And our mission has expanded. I now write a weekly column for The Irish Catholic and Elaine is a prison chaplain for our diocese.

And through St Patrick we now work with Dana Rosemary Scallon, who won Eurovision, as a teenager in 1970 with the song All Kinds of Everything, and her husband, Damien, both committed Catholics.

Dana is a million-selling artist and well known Catholic.

Dana remains a popular singer-songwriter and was inspired by her late brother-in-law Fr Kevin Scallon to write a new song for St Patrick, called Light the Fire. It was launched on St Patrick’s Day 2023 and Dana and her husband subsequently founded the Light The Fire ministry, with our support.

She has also debuted the song in St Patrick's Cathedral New York.

One of our first missions was at Slane in August, 2023, when more than 4,000 people gathered on the Irish hillside where St Patrick had lit the first Easter fire in 433AD in defiance of the High King of Tara. The Archbishop of Armagh, Eamon Martin, St Patrick’s successor, lit a symbolic flame and there was mass, rosary, praise and worship and a healing service with Sr Briege McKenna.

"Light the Fire is being called an ‘anthem for today’ and it has led to a movement," said Dana. “My hope is that this song and the movement it inspired, continues to light fires of faith, hope, and love in a world that needs it so badly."

Dana, together with her husband also wrote the famous Irish hymn, as well as Totus Tuus (Totally Yours) which she memorably performed for Pope John Paul II in front of 48,000 in New Orleans in 1987.

Martina Purdy, Dana, and Elaine Kelly.

Come what may, we are on mission to rekindle that flame of faith, hope and love and, if you want to celebrate our faith, hear inspiring stories and song, and journey with joy in this Jubilee Year of Hope, join Dana, Damien, Elaine and I and many others at St Mary’s Catholic in Edinburgh on Friday 17 October.

Join Martina, Elaine, and Dana on Friday 17 October for Dana and Friends: Stories of Faith, Hope, and Love. Doors 7:00pm. Register here. This article (abridged) first appeared in Crux, the magazine of the Friends of St Mary's Cathedral.

Holy Year: Fife Pilgrim Way

Join us for this special Jubilee Year 2025 event, walking the historic and picturesque Fife Pilgrim Way over six stages.

Saturday 30 August

11:00am: Fife Pilgrim Way information board, Battery Rd, North Queensferry, to St Margaret's, Dunfermline, via Abbey.

Saturday 6 September

11:00am: St Margaret's Memorial Church, Dunfermline, to St Joseph's, Kelty.

Saturday 13 September

11:00am: St Joseph's, Kelty, to St Mary’s, Leslie.

Saturday 20 September

11:00am: St Mary’s, Leslie, to St Giles, Kennoway.

Saturday 27 September

11:00am: St Giles Kennoway, to Ceres, Kemback & Springfield Church.

Saturday 18 October (not 4 October as previously advertised)

11:00am: Ceres, Kemback & Springfield Church, to St James’ Church, St Andrews.

Deacon Pat Carrigan, organiser, said: “The Jubilee Year Pilgrim Walk is a wonderful chance to journey together in faith, following in the footsteps of the pilgrims who walked these paths before us.

"Each stage offers not only beautiful scenery but also prayer, fellowship, and hospitality along the way.”

Event organised by the Fife Deanery of the Archdiocese of St Andrews & Edinburgh. Turn up on the day ready to go. Bring a packed lunch. No registration required. Each stage approximately 8 to 9 miles. Hospitality offered at destination location. Limited number of Fife Pilgrim Way Passports available on first day. Queries to Deacon Pat Carrigan at obl.columba@gmail.com

Mass aboard ship for Filipino crew

When the Filipino crew of a ship docked at Leith asked for Mass on board, their wish was granted thanks to the care of Stella Maris and a local priest.

Fr Ray Warren OMI (main pic left), of St Mary Star of the Sea Parish in Leith, celebrated Mass for the crew, heard confessions, and blessed the ship.

A sister vessel berthed alongside also had Catholic crew members take part.

After Mass, Robert King – Stella Maris Regional Port Chaplain for Glasgow and Edinburgh (main pic right) – distributed prayer cards, rosaries, holy water, and woolly hats.

For the men of the laid-up ship, whose faith is important to them, it was a moment of faith, friendship, and recognition in the midst of their demanding work at sea.

One crew member expressed how much it meant: it lifted their spirits, gave them peace, and reassured them that they are not forgotten.

Life on the Peripheries

Seafarers and fishers live and work on the margins of society.

Their lives are hidden from view, yet they play a crucial role in bringing us so much of the food, fuel, and goods we depend on.

Their work is gruelling: six hours on, six hours off, day after day.

They endure isolation, limited shore leave, and the dangers of sailing through risky waters.

They miss family milestones – births, graduations, celebrations, funerals – moments most of us take for granted.

Not Forgotten

That is why Stella Maris exists: to remind them that they are not alone.

Its chaplains and volunteer ship visitors are a lifeline in ports around the UK, offering friendship, practical help, and spiritual care.

Robert King’s support for the crew in Leith showed this in action. His presence, and the celebration of Mass, reminded the seafarers that their sacrifices are recognised and that they are visible, valued, and loved.

As we celebrate the season of harvest and abundance, let us remember these hidden heroes of the sea.

Please keep seafarers and fishers in your prayers and support the mission of Stella Maris, which continues to serve them with Christ’s love.

For more information and to donate, visit www.stellamaris.org.uk.

Prayers for legal profession at Red Mass

At the annual Red Mass in Edinburgh, Archbishop Leo Cushley urged Scotland’s legal community to ensure that lawmaking remains grounded in reason, human nature and the common good.

Addressing judges, advocates and lawyers at St Mary’s Cathedral, he reflected on the enduring influence of philosophy on justice and society.

The Mass was also attended by Lord Pentland, newly appointed Lord President of the Court of Session and Scotland’s most senior judge.

Below is the full text of his homily.

Homily of Archbishop Leo Cushley of St Andrews & Edinburgh, Red Mass, St Mary’s Cathedral, Edinburgh 21 September 2025

My dear friends,

A renewed word of welcome to the Senators of the College of Justice, the Right Honourable Lord Pentland and his fellow judges Lord Doherty, Lady Carmichael, Lord Ericht, Lord Scott and Lady Ross.

We especially welcome the Right Honourable Lord Pentland, who earlier this year was appointed by His Majesty The King as Lord President of the Court of Session and Lord Justice General.

This means that he is the most senior judge in Scotland, and we are honoured to have him attend in his new role.

We wish you every success leading the judiciary in the very significant and important role of Lord President.

We are also joined by Sheriffs from across the country, as well as solicitors, advocates, King’s Counsel, and a range of others involved in the legal profession, along with their families.

We welcome representatives of the Law Society of Scotland, the Faculty of Advocates, the Society of Writers to His Majesty’s Signet, as well as representatives from local bar associations and law schools.

This year we also welcome judges and lawyers from the Franco British Lawyers’ Society, who have been in Edinburgh this week for a conference.

We especially welcome The Right Honourable Lord Justice McCloskey from Northern Ireland and the other delegates from Scotland, England, Northern Ireland, France and Guernsey.

I hope you have enjoyed your visit to Edinburgh and am pleased that so many of you have been able to extend your stay to be with us today.

***

Now, to change direction slightly, I don’t know how many of you here have studied philosophy.

It’s something that we as Catholic priests are obliged to study, sometimes to degree level, before we move on to theology.

So, as young men, we duly studied the stuff, but we were naturally impatient to move on from philosophy as quickly as possible, and actually had little patience with it, except as the obligatory gateway to studying the mystery of Christ, the Gospels, St Paul, St John, the Old Testament, canon law, the seven Sacraments, moral theology, and so on.

That was what we were in seminary for!

We were also told that philosophy was useful stuff, and that its history was a way to learn not so much what to think, but how to think, and we all agreed that, once we’d completed the degree, it had been a useful exercise.

And, well, it was.

But, as I’ve noticed in my priest friends as we get older, I have found myself returning more and more to philosophy, and really enjoying reading it again.

It may all sound a bit arcane, or a bit out there, but in recent years I’ve been looking again at epistemology and logic and ethics.

I’ve gone back to Plato and Aristotle. And I’ve done so, partly because I began to wonder a while ago if they had some of the answers that we here, today, in our society, search for and yet appear to lack - and, I’m happy to say, that I’m finding and learning a great deal that is old, but it’s also gold: it is still very relevant to everyone who lives in the western world today, and to us, the seemingly distant heirs of those who first asked the really big questions: why are we here?

What is the meaning of existence, of life? What ought we to do with the few days we have on this earth?

In a particular way, the people of first century Greece and Rome are our forebears in all of this.

They faced the dramatic political change from Republic to Empire; they faced very similar – eerily similar - questions to the ones that we face today about the human person and about society.

I don’t have a lot of time to deepen this, so this homily will only be like a brief advert for an epic movie – but I recommend highly that you think about going to see it.

So, the first thing I’d say is that we’re not much different from our forebears in the first century, the time of Jesus and Paul and Caligula and Nero.

They were made of the same stuff as us, they stood up in the same flesh and blood, and they were just as gifted, and intelligent, and concerned for their families, and their society and their future as any of us.

We shouldn’t dismiss them out of hand just because they didn’t have electricity, or iPads, or the internet.

Some of their science had a way to go, but their thought about the human person is as good and as valuable as anything our thinkers have to offer today.

In fact, I’d go further, and say that we have had no one around of the equivalent of Aristotle or Augustine for a very, very long time, in spite of air travel and nuclear weapons and all the rest.

And, while we wait for someone truly wise to come along again, we could do worse than to take a look at the greats whose thinking is as wise and useful and fresh as ever it was.

The second thing I would say is that you’ll notice how philosophy is not something you see on the street.

Today it’s found in dusty academic classrooms, and it is not much frequented or taken seriously.  Not even in Parisian cafés.

If philosophy is about anything these days, it’s about epistemology and logic, that is, how we understand things, how we think, how we arrive at conclusions.  Effort and money are poured into AI these days, but not into HI, human intelligence.

And yet if we go back to the first century, we see a very different picture.

Human intelligence is the benchmark. Philosophers are to be found everywhere, in the marketplace, in politics, in debates in Athens and Corinth and Rome, down the pub, in the street.

Free speech really is free, and ideas get a serious, full airing.  All sorts of ideas.  Sceptics, Cynics, Epicureans, Stoics, categories that we use to this day. The only cancelling is done by emperors who fear the truth about the human person.

But the point I want to make here is this.  Philosophers weren’t on people’s radars to tell them about ideas.  People sought out philosophers to help them know how to live.

Philosophers weren’t seen so much as thinkers; they were instead seen as healers.

They offered a sane, reasonable way to live.

They were healers of the mind and the soul.

Young men, but young women too, went to them for guidance on how to live a good life.

For us today, the good news is that we are just beginning to glimpse again, to rediscover the understanding of our human nature, as it given to us, and the use of reason to find a sane, and healthy, and humane way to live.

Elements of the Stoic approach in particular surely appealed to St Paul, as we begin to see again how he thought and taught in those categories.

Christianity and some strands of stoicism strongly echo each other.

And there is therefore a wonderful overlap between the thinkers – the philosophers, the healers of the age, and Christianity, as it emerges at the end of the first century.

Our laws, likewise, to this day, draw a great deal from this very period, and above all from what is reasonable: what it is reasonable to assert about the human person, what it is possible to deduce and apply, drawn from our human nature as it has been given to us, and consequently what will lead the individual and society more surely to a happy, wise, good way of living.

My dear friends of the legal profession, the laws then that you apply, must be adequate today, as always, to such a task.

If our laws do not stand up well to such a critique, then they need to be looked at again.

They must be reasonable, they must correspond to our human nature, they must set standards of behaviour that can be judged against such a balanced approach.

Again, I find myself talking somewhat over your heads to our legislators rather than to you who apply the law; but you have your role to play in this as well, not least because no one knows the law like you know the law.

You shape the debate about law.

Our society, and the west as a whole, needs constantly to take a fresh look at its legislation and to see if the laws we have, and the direction of travel, is one that is leading to us to reasonable laws, natural laws, humane laws, or if our present path is taking us off somewhere else.

What is characterised as progress is often merely change, and there is no guarantee that it will be change for the better.

Change does not lead instantly to progress; and we have ample proof of that all around us.  So be aware when someone tells you that progress has been made in legislation; it may simply be change, and it may be ill-considered change at that.

In terms of law in our country today, what is reasonable from its Roman-Christian past is still in place; but the struggle for the true common good of the nation through sane, reasonable laws continues to be a concern for all of us, and for all people of good will.

Lords and Ladies, dear friends of the legal profession, as you go about your tasks in this new legal year, be assured of our prayers and our encouragement to you in your high calling on our behalf.

Continue to engage in the discussions around what makes for good law.

Strive to apply our imperfect lawmaking in the most reasonable, natural and human manner available.

And may the good Lord guide you and keep you all in the coming year.

Thank you for listening, and God bless you!

WATCH: Archbishop on The Saint Ninian Declaration

Archbishop Cushley appeared on BBC Scotland this morning (18 September) to highlight the Saint Ninian Declaration

The document is an historic agreement of friendship between the Scottish Episcopal Church and the Catholic Church in Scotland. It can be read here.

Watch the video below or on YouTube

Transcript

It was a special day for two of Scotland’s churches this week.

In Edinburgh on Tuesday, Bishop Mark Strange, Primus of the Scottish Episcopal Church and myself, representing the Catholic Church in Scotland, signed the Saint Ninian Declaration.

It is a friendship agreement between the two churches

Now, this isn’t about pretending our churches are the same. We know there are differences. But it is about choosing to walk together, to pray together, and to work together for the good of the people we serve.

We undertook a walk between our two cathedrals. Along the way we were welcomed by representatives of the Church of Scotland. It was a simple gesture, but a powerful one – showing that Scotland’s three largest Christian communities want to journey together. Both our churches have signed declarations of friendship with the Church of Scotland in recent years.

Tuesday’s step builds on that story.

And yet, it’s not just about church leaders. It’s a message for all of us. Friendship is possible, even when we don’t see eye to eye. True friendship doesn’t mean agreeing on everything – it means being honest, trusting one another, and choosing love over suspicion.

That feels important in today’s world. We live in a time when it can seem harder than ever for some people to even to sit at the same table with someone who thinks differently from them. Too often, disagreement is seen as division, and difference as something to fear.

But it doesn’t have to be that way. By listening, by showing respect, we can discover that what unites us is often much greater than what divides us.

The Saint Ninian Declaration isn’t the end of a journey – it’s just another step along the way. But we hope it will be a sign of hope, reconciliation, and friendship for Scotland.

St Ninian, after all, brought the Christian faith to this land over fifteen hundred years ago.

Today, we try to walk in his footsteps – shoulder to shoulder, as friends and partners in the mission of peace and service.

Saint Ninian declaration to 'deepen friendship'

Archbishop Cushley will today (Tuesday 16 September) sign an historic declaration of friendship between the Scottish Episcopal Church and the Catholic Church in Scotland.

The Saint Ninian Declaration supports a deepening relationship between Episcopalians and Catholics in Scotland, encouraging both to work more closely together while acknowledging the distinct differences between the two churches.

The signing of the Declaration takes place in Edinburgh on the Feast of Saint Ninian.

Archbishop Cushley, Bishop President for Ecumenical Relations for the Bishops' Conference of Scotland, said: “This declaration is not only for us, but for the people of Scotland whom we are called to serve.

Archbishop Cushley speaking at the General Assembly of the Scottish Episcopalian Church in June.

"By deepening the friendship, we strengthen our common witness to the Gospel in a world that longs for hope and reconciliation.

"True friendship does not demand uniformity, but grows through honesty, trust, and love.

“When we sign this declaration, we are saying to our people: let us walk together as brothers and sisters in Christ. Let our unity in Christ be a sign of God’s love for all.

"May this moment encourage us to look outward, shoulder to shoulder, as friends and partners in mission.”

The Most Rev Mark Strange, Bishop of Moray, Ross & Caithness and Primus of the Scottish Episcopal Church, will also sign the document.

He said: “We sign this declaration on the feast day of St Ninian remembering the saint who first carried the Gospel to this land.

“Christ calls us all to listen, to learn, and to serve this land as descendants of Ninian, side by side.”

“Through this act we in the Scottish Episcopal and Roman Catholic Churches are committing to walk forward together as friends, on the same journey of faith that Ninian started over a thousand years ago.

“It gives us an opportunity to focus on what we share, and to trust that Christ calls us all to listen, to learn, and to serve this land as descendants of Ninian, side by side.”

The signing

The first part of the signing will take place at St Mary’s Catholic Cathedral in York Place, and the second part at St Mary’s Episcopal Cathedral in Palmerston Place, both on 16 September.

The day will include a Symposium on the history of the relationship between the Catholic and Episcopal churches in Scotland, featuring academic experts.

That event will start at 2:00pm in St Mary’s Catholic Cathedral and the speakers are:

At 4:00pm, the Declaration will be signed by Archbishop Cushley and Bishop Strange.

The Archbishop and the Primus will then move on to an Evensong service at 5:30pm at St Mary’s Episcopal Cathedral, where the second signing will take place.

The declaration follows the St Margaret Declaration of friendship between the Church of Scotland the Catholic Church in Scotland, signed in 2022.

All are welcome to attend the signings.

WATCH: What God wants from us

Archbishop Cushley is celebrating 40 years as a priest.

He spoke at the annual National Pilgrimage in Carfin yesterday about his vocation and the importance of being open to God's will.

Watch here. Transcript below.

My dear friends,

It’s a great pleasure to join you here at Carfin Grotto on the happy occasion of our national pilgrimage, traditionally in honour of Saint Margaret and Saint John Ogilvie.

Bishop Joseph Toal also asked me if I would preside and preach today, as this year marks 40 years in the priesthood for me, and I’m honoured to be able to do this in my home diocese of Motherwell.

As some of you may know, I served six years in Motherwell Diocese as an assistant priest and as a chaplain in our high schools.  Six years.

Meantime, I have now served 12 years in the Archdiocese of Saint Andrew & Edinburgh. But don’t worry: I feel very much at home in both east and west…!

My vocation, my calling to the priesthood, takes me back 50 years to 1975 and to something very simple: being persuaded by a teenage friend to go on a school trip to Rome.

Like this year, 1975 was a jubilee year and so my school, Holy Cross in Hamilton, went on a pilgrimage that took us to Rome, so that I found myself standing in Saint Peter’s Square on Easter Sunday in 1975, being blessed in a full and jubilant square with 100,000 other people by Pope Paul VI now Pope Saint Paul VI.

Sometime after that I went to speak to my mother and father about a growing idea that I had, that perhaps I should go to Blairs to test a vocation to the priesthood.

They agreed to this, perhaps a wee bit reluctantly at first, but for the next 10 years I was in training and, in 1985 I was ordained to the priesthood after four years in Blairs and six years in the Scots College in Rome.

Importantly, back then I can remember thinking, “Well I’m prepared to give myself to being a priest, but there are one or two things I don’t really want to have to do.

As I’m going to be a priest of Motherwell Diocese, I won’t be going to the missions, I won’t be working in other dioceses in Scotland, I won’t need to travel far, and I will always be a 20-minute car ride from my mum and dad’s house.

Little by little, however, I began to realise that the Lord had other plans for me. I began to realise that what I thought was my vocation to the priesthood turned out to be the Lord’s vocation to the priesthood. And think about it for a minute.

When you hear the words “my vocation” you can think of it in two ways. It’s either something that belongs to me because it’s my vocation, or it’s the Lord’s call to me, and in that sense it is my vocation.

In other words, what the Lord is calling me to do. Sure, the latter way of seeing it was something I understood in theory, but the transition from the first version of “my vocation” to the second version of “my vocation” has taken place in me over these last 40 years. And it came slowly but surely.

I came to realise in a very real and concrete way that my vocation was not my vocation at all.

It was the Lord’s calling to me, and it was the Lord’s work. And so, predictably, inevitably, the Lord’s calling to me has taken me to all sorts of places I never ever dreamed of going to as a man, as a missionary, or as a priest.

It took me to seven countries in Africa, two in Europe and one in America.

It took me places where I had to learn the language, it took me into danger, it took me into meeting people who are now among my dearest friends, it took me away my father before he died, and it took me to some of the most wonderful, important and formative experiences of my life.

Answering the call of Jesus Christ has been a most wonderful adventure, and I can recommend it to anyone who has heard even just the bat squeak of a call, whether you’re a young man or young woman.

I have made my best friends and my lifelong friends. I have been very happy and fulfilled as a man and as a priest, and I continue to be so with God’s good grace and his Spirit accompanying me, in spite of my limited gift-of-self.

God asked for more; he did so gently and gradually, and he made my vocation to serve him into something better: he made it into his vocation to serve him.

The readings that we have just heard are those for today, the 23rd Sunday of the year (Year C).

They are a surprise and a coincidence, and they serve my purpose very well, because they describe how to know the will God and what it is to do the will of God.

The first reading, from the book of Wisdom, has the tagline, “Who can discern the will of God?” In other words, how can we come to know the will of God? What is its importance for us?”

This is something so central to discipleship, that you don’t really trouble about it too much when you’re young, when your life is an unwritten page.

But over forty years of priesthood, I have learned that I’m not in fact in charge.

A lot of it isn’t up to me.

I have learned that I really do not have the agency that I thought I did when I was first ordained.

Back then, I thought at least some of it was up to me and the rest up to the Lord. Sure, I had promised to be celibate; I had promised obedience to my Bishop; I had promised to pray the Liturgy of the Hours every day.

Those would be the main challenges, I thought, but I also thought that the rest would largely be up to me. I would go wherever my Bishop sent me and I would do my best to be cheerful about it.

I had no wish to serve in the missions, I had no desire to work in dioceses beyond Motherwell, and I was quite content here in Lanarkshire.  So far so good then.

But that all changed only six years after starting to work in the parishes here and, when I was asked out the blue to work for the pope and the Holy See abroad, all of these rather soft but definite red lines of mine started to dissolve.

I did end up working in mission countries; I did end up working in dangerous places away from Scotland; I also ended up learning a lot about the local Catholic churches, about the wonderful family that the Catholic Church is throughout the world, about the profound communion and charity that we all share with each other throughout the world, in communion with the Successor of Saint Peter and the See of Rome.

All those things that I never expected to have to do or especially wanted to do, one by one the Lord asked me to do them.

I learned the hard way something that we say in the Our Father every single day, something at the heart of what we need as a disciple of Jesus of Nazareth.

We must endeavour to find the will of God for us and to embrace it willingly and lovingly.

Without thinking about it, every time we say the Our Father, we say “Thy will be done” - we usually don’t give it a second thought, but it is at the very heart of what it means to be a disciple, and what it means to be a priest of Jesus Christ.

So, when I pray nowadays, I find myself often noticing that part of the Our Father.

I find myself saying, “Lord, let you will be done”.  I find myself endeavouring to want what the Lord wants.

Of course, I don’t always know what it is the Lord wants of me, but I try to put myself at the disposal of the Lord, so that I will do His will, and in doing so that I will be happy, that I will be blessed, and that others will be blessed too.

The gospel reading has a similar, if rather stronger, version of that message. Jesus, speaking to all his disciples, says “Anyone who does not hate father or mother or brother or sister is not worthy of me.

Anyone who does not hate his life is not worthy of me”. These are strong words, and they show us clearly the blue water, the real distance that we need to put between what we want and what the Lord wants for us.

As the famous playwright Robert Bolt nearly says in one of his plays, we can want what we want, but we don’t always get what we want.

In other words, we might be better learning to want what it is that God wants for us and find out happiness in fulfilling His will.

The good news is that the Lord is patient with us.  It took me a long, long time to see that: not just to be cheerfully obedient, not just to be happily celibate, not just to say my prayers. All of these are absolutely essential and wonderfully liberating and preparative for the life of a priest in today’s world.

But to find a way to embrace the Lord’s will for you and to embrace it willingly is perhaps one of the most important lessons I’ve ever learned and that I would want for all of you as well.

If we wish to be the Lord’s disciples, we may have to be ready to give up an awful lot. Of course, it may never happen.

But as our Lord says in the last line of today’s gospel, unless we are prepared to let it all go, we cannot be His disciples.

Or, to flip it round and put it more positively, we must endeavour, every day, in our prayers in our actions, to find the will of God for us and to embrace it willingly and lovingly whenever the call comes and wherever it leads us.

Thanks for listening and God bless you all!

Catholic Conversations for Women

Women who are recent converts, those considering Catholicism, and those who are desirous of faith-focused discussion are welcome to this event on Saturday, 25 October, 3:45pm-4:45pm in the St Andrew’s Parish rooms (77 Belford Rd, EH4 3DS).

All welcome to join for Holy Hour with Adoration and chanted Vespers from 5:10pm in the convent with the Religious Sisters of Mercy of Alma.

To register, email edinburgh@almamercy.org or call 0131 343 3380.

National Youth Pilgrimage to Perth

This annual event takes place in Perth on Saturday 20 September, meeting at South Inch Park.

A full day of activities includes historic site visits, talks, and Holy Mass with Archbishop Cushley.

Schedule

12:30pm: Meet at South Inch Park (PH2 8AN), just behind Perth bus and train stations. There is parking available and public toilets nearby. 

1:00pm: Opening prayer.

2:00pm: Walk to St John’s Kirk, commemorate 1750 anniversary Nicean Creed.

3:00pm: Walk to North Inch, Liturgy of Baptism.

4:00pm: Holy Mass with Archbishop Leo Cushley and Bishop Andrew McKenzie (Dunkeld Diocese) at St John's Church, Melville Street. Refreshments after Mass in hurch hall.

If you wish to join fellow pilgrims (18+) from the Archdiocese travelling by train to Perth from Stirling, Falkirk and Edinburgh please contact Sr Isabelle Dufaux FSO at youth.office@staned.org.uk